ADDICTION: Taiye Flora
A
DDICTION
I thought I had everything
But I had lost the only one
Who meant everything to me
I would have gained everything
If I had him but now I have
Nothing but sadness
Regret and remorse
There is no one to blame but I.
I paid deaf ears to his warnings
Now I am yearning
Just to hear those warnings
So that I could get back
To my calling
I failed to realise that
These actions I was taking
Will lead me into having
The negative reactions in life.
It all started right from
My senior year in high school
With the "Senior"title
Attached to my name
I felt like I Own the world and
I could do anything
My outstanding grades made me
So proud and full of my self Wanting everything
To go my way.
I used my cutest words
"I love you both"
To convince my folk into
Getting me the latest phone
And they couldn't resist cutie me
But that was when
My life changed for the worst.
I became a PHONE ADDICT
I could feel the hotness of
My phone every single night
Due to over usage
But I cared less because
I could get a better one
Whenever I want.
Facebook Twitter Instagram
Name it
I was on all social media site
You can think of
I had lots of friends
I accepted friend request
From far and wide
When ever I get lots of
Likes and comments from
My post I always feel like
I own it all.
I had lots of male users
As my friends
My beauty was a big attraction
That was how another
Phase of ADDICTION came
Knocking at my door
And I slowly opened
Til it finally came in.
I had lots of Male gender
Asking me for a relationship
Sending me airtime and gifts
Confessing never ending love
I was so thrilled thinking
This was all to life.
My folks are workaholics
They never have time for me
They never really
Monitor my movements
So after school I always pay
My driver to shut his mouth
And drop me off at a place.
I change out of my uniform
Then I go to a friend's house
She will do a makeover for me
And after that we will
Go party and have fun.
At the age of 15
I was already in a relationship
Teenage emotional feelings
Filled my thoughts
I let the opposite sex
Deceive me with
Their sugarcoated tongue.
It all started from
Holding paws to hugging
From hugging to pecking
From pecking to kissing
From kissing to making out
From making out we had sex
It became a continuous habit
And before I knew it
I became a SEX ADDICT.
It became something that
I couldn't let go
I enjoyed it so much
But I never knew
I was selling my soul to the devil
And he was happy to receive it.
Late puberty came
So my dirty dealing
Stopped for a while
I was not comfortable anymore
So I started viewing
Pornographic films and videos
Just to satisfy my sexual urges.
And soon I became
A lesbian and a masturbator
I just let the devil guide me
Towards the road
That leads to the gate of hell.
I made more friends
Who introduced me
Into taking harmful substances
I Started smoking cocaine
And I started drinking alcohol
From a PHONE ADDICT
To a SEX ADDICT and now
I became a DRUG ADDICT.
This made me loose
Great focus in life
I became a whole different being
And this lead me into
A deeper part of destruction
I was doomed for hell.
I became so ADDICTED to drugs
That I couldn't do without it
I had to read for my final exams
But my brain wasn't in place
I needed to take my drugs
I was so unease
The night before my exams
That I couldn't read my books.
I gave up my pretence
And I decided to show
My true self to my folks
I felt so dizzy and fainted
My folks took me to the hospital
The doctor confirmed that
I had stage four lung cancer
And I just have few days to live.
I started confessing to my folks
What I have been up to
Since the the day
I was given a phone
They were so disappointed in me
But they also blame themselves
Because they never had the time to monitor me and look after me.
No one came to visit the dying me
And that was when I realized
That all my friends
Were from the pit of hell
Sent to destroy and ruin my life.
I and my folks had to turn to God
And we asked him for mercy
I knew I had no chance
To survive this death
I wanted a second chance
So I cried and prayed everyday.
I asked God for forgiveness
I lived the last few days of
My life weeping and praying
To God for his mercy
I realized I had lost so much
In a very short time.
On a very cold night
The monitor that
Regulated my heart stopped
I was gone from earth
I died.
And then I saw my self
In front of the Messiah
Standing to receive judgement
As much as I deserved hell
I was praying and crying
Just for a second chance
I kneeled and begged
For his forgiveness.
My God forgave me
He gave a second chance
I came back to earth
I came to make things right
I came to cause a change
I came to make a difference
It is my new dawn
I am a living testimony.
Taiye Flora
I thought I had everything
But I had lost the only one
Who meant everything to me
I would have gained everything
If I had him but now I have
Nothing but sadness
Regret and remorse
There is no one to blame but I.
I paid deaf ears to his warnings
Now I am yearning
Just to hear those warnings
So that I could get back
To my calling
I failed to realise that
These actions I was taking
Will lead me into having
The negative reactions in life.
It all started right from
My senior year in high school
With the "Senior"title
Attached to my name
I felt like I Own the world and
I could do anything
My outstanding grades made me
So proud and full of my self Wanting everything
To go my way.
I used my cutest words
"I love you both"
To convince my folk into
Getting me the latest phone
And they couldn't resist cutie me
But that was when
My life changed for the worst.
I became a PHONE ADDICT
I could feel the hotness of
My phone every single night
Due to over usage
But I cared less because
I could get a better one
Whenever I want.
Facebook Twitter Instagram
Name it
I was on all social media site
You can think of
I had lots of friends
I accepted friend request
From far and wide
When ever I get lots of
Likes and comments from
My post I always feel like
I own it all.
I had lots of male users
As my friends
My beauty was a big attraction
That was how another
Phase of ADDICTION came
Knocking at my door
And I slowly opened
Til it finally came in.
I had lots of Male gender
Asking me for a relationship
Sending me airtime and gifts
Confessing never ending love
I was so thrilled thinking
This was all to life.
My folks are workaholics
They never have time for me
They never really
Monitor my movements
So after school I always pay
My driver to shut his mouth
And drop me off at a place.
I change out of my uniform
Then I go to a friend's house
She will do a makeover for me
And after that we will
Go party and have fun.
At the age of 15
I was already in a relationship
Teenage emotional feelings
Filled my thoughts
I let the opposite sex
Deceive me with
Their sugarcoated tongue.
It all started from
Holding paws to hugging
From hugging to pecking
From pecking to kissing
From kissing to making out
From making out we had sex
It became a continuous habit
And before I knew it
I became a SEX ADDICT.
It became something that
I couldn't let go
I enjoyed it so much
But I never knew
I was selling my soul to the devil
And he was happy to receive it.
Late puberty came
So my dirty dealing
Stopped for a while
I was not comfortable anymore
So I started viewing
Pornographic films and videos
Just to satisfy my sexual urges.
And soon I became
A lesbian and a masturbator
I just let the devil guide me
Towards the road
That leads to the gate of hell.
I made more friends
Who introduced me
Into taking harmful substances
I Started smoking cocaine
And I started drinking alcohol
From a PHONE ADDICT
To a SEX ADDICT and now
I became a DRUG ADDICT.
This made me loose
Great focus in life
I became a whole different being
And this lead me into
A deeper part of destruction
I was doomed for hell.
I became so ADDICTED to drugs
That I couldn't do without it
I had to read for my final exams
But my brain wasn't in place
I needed to take my drugs
I was so unease
The night before my exams
That I couldn't read my books.
I gave up my pretence
And I decided to show
My true self to my folks
I felt so dizzy and fainted
My folks took me to the hospital
The doctor confirmed that
I had stage four lung cancer
And I just have few days to live.
I started confessing to my folks
What I have been up to
Since the the day
I was given a phone
They were so disappointed in me
But they also blame themselves
Because they never had the time to monitor me and look after me.
No one came to visit the dying me
And that was when I realized
That all my friends
Were from the pit of hell
Sent to destroy and ruin my life.
I and my folks had to turn to God
And we asked him for mercy
I knew I had no chance
To survive this death
I wanted a second chance
So I cried and prayed everyday.
I asked God for forgiveness
I lived the last few days of
My life weeping and praying
To God for his mercy
I realized I had lost so much
In a very short time.
On a very cold night
The monitor that
Regulated my heart stopped
I was gone from earth
I died.
And then I saw my self
In front of the Messiah
Standing to receive judgement
As much as I deserved hell
I was praying and crying
Just for a second chance
I kneeled and begged
For his forgiveness.
My God forgave me
He gave a second chance
I came back to earth
I came to make things right
I came to cause a change
I came to make a difference
It is my new dawn
I am a living testimony.
Taiye Flora
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